Mrs. James

I see 1 facebook inbox message and I wonder who. Really an awesome surprise.

Hi Tiffany,

I am Mrs. James (Esther), Abby's mom. How are you?

Just wanted to drop a note to thank you and Yohan for being there at a time Abby needed a friend. Though I have not met you or Yohan, I know from what Abby has described that you are both God sent and more then a brother and sister to her during her time so far away from home. We are so blessed to have angels like you around.

THANK YOU and God bless us all.

PS: Please convey my love and thanks to Yohan as well.

Thank You for Being My Best Friend

I don't remember anyone persuade me to talk as you have.

I don't remember ever having anyone reassuring me so much that I can trust them with everything.

I don't remember anyone constantly asking me not to feel awkward with them.

I don't remember anyone driving me 40 minutes to the top of a hill to see the city lights.

I don't remember ever seeing a non-school friend this much.

I don't remember anyone coming to my house this often.

I don't remember anyone ever being so protective of me as you are.

I don't remember anyone ever wanting to punch someone else for me.

I don't remember anyone who'd let me do this much shit as I've done with you.

I don't remember anyone talking so freely with me.

I don't remember anyone call me a cartoon.

I don't remember anyone telling me 24/7 that I'm lame.

I don't remember anyone staying up till 6am with me, talking to me.

I don't remember what it's like to share face-to-face.

I haven't had someone do this much for me in a long long long long long long time.

I've never had a best friend like you.

I am pretty sure you don't read my blog but this post is nevertheless dedicated to you. Thank you for last night. It may not seem the case but I really appreciate it and am truly loved with a friend like you. It's hard for me to express everything face-to-face. But worry not, you'll know it all soon enough.

For everything you've done, I love you too! :)

PS. That thing about the conversations in the car, can you not always wait for me to make conversation first? You know what I'm like. I can stay silent for extended periods of time.

Ok bye...

From Where You Are

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you

So far away from where you are
Standing underneath the stars
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they'd mean everything to me
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

I feel the beating of your heart
I see the shadows of your face
Just know that wherever you are
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they'd mean everything to me
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

-Lifehouse-

MAY IS THE BEST

HAHAHA! :)

May reporting here, Tiffany forgot to log out. LOLOLOL!!

May is awesome, she's a-MAY-zing!! :3

because I'm a nice friend, I shall log out for her.

I LOVE YOU TIFFY-DIFFY-SIFFY!

successfully hacked on 31/5/2010

Before Bed

Before bed, I just wanna think of the ones that matter. The ones I love. To you guys that matter, thank you for making my night.

The night started with a phone call. A very simple phone call to ask Steve if he was in Murdoch. Sadly he wasn't. But it was because he wasn't there that I got talking to him. I just blabbed and blabbed, ignoring what he thought. It was just such an awesome feeling to call someone and chat without agenda. To be honest, I don't really remember what we chatted about and how we managed to chat for so long. Then I saw Abby's uncle and I decided to hang up and also so that I could find out where my ride was. So I say hi to Abby's uncle and then call Yohaan, only to find out he's just leaving home. I pause for a second and decide to call Steve again. He takes so long to pick up the phone second time round, I almost decide to hang up. Even before he can say anything, I tell him I'm bored and hint that he should talk to me and entertain me because that's what I always do for him. I remember asking him what he was doing and he replied, preparing dinner. I say to him, I'm going to ignore what you just said and be annoying and make you talk to me. And he's totally cool about it. Along the way, I hear sighs and I scold him for acting as though he doesn't want to talk to me. Eventually, I tell him he can go off and cook and that I'll talk to him later. But he doesn't yet put down. Moments later, Yohaan arrives and I get into the car. He asks why it's become noisy all of a sudden and I tell him it's cos I'm in the car. And he goes, OHHHHH!!!! Now I know why you said I could go cook. It was because you didn't need me. Needless to say, I react. I think our conversations don't make much sense to the people outside it, but thank you for your company today. You really made the start of my night awesome by setting the pace and standard of company required. I love you!!

The next person is Joel. He's my ___________. Has multiple personalities in my eyes and can fulfil multiple roles in my life. We're supposed to meet in Abby's room but we get there too late and they're already back in the library. Studying. Or so I think they are. I go there and I see Facebook (totally not surprising) on all of their computers. Joel's supposed to leave Uni by 8pm but we end up going for dinner instead and he later returns to Uni. He's really cuddly and huggable. I love hugging people and hugging him is like amazing and he smells nice too! I may sound like I'm a bit crazy but I'm not. When you get a chance to hug him, you will know what I mean about him being so lovely to hug. For all your lovely hugs darling, I love you!!

Following Joel is my lovely and dear younger sister May. She's just amazing. What else can I say? She always manages to put a smile on my face when I see her and I love that she loves me for who I am even though I hurt her many a times with my weird personality. She's just great to be around. She was trying to study today but I think I distracted her too much with my presence. We were standing in a circle chatting and when she sees us laughing, she decides to come over to join the gossip. Sadly, the gossip had just ended and we were in the midst of laughing, remembering little of the conversation that just passed by. This same incident happened a second time in the same night, it was just so cute! That cuteness just makes me wanna hug her and protect her like my little sister. But with all that love, comes the bit where I like making fun of my younger siblings and annoying me. But at the end of the day May, I love you!!

Abby is one helluva special chick. I meet her on the day we're due to tour the Cathedral. That was 10th April. Not even 2 months later, she's one person I think of and miss throughout the day. The other is Yohaan. Together us three have funny conversations. Funny only to ourselves though.. Quite like how I am with Steve. They've got my back I can tell. Abby's due to get the surprise I got from Yohaan yesterday. After we show her the surprise, she just laughs and then runs to the corner, sit-squats on the ground and laughs so much. Abby, I've so many funny stories with you, its just impossible to fit the all into this blog post. :) I could hug you all day Abby my love... I love you!!

And Yohaan. he picks me up from the train station. Later, Abby, Yohaan and I have some hilarious and amazing conversations. But to cut a long story short, Yohaan sends me home and he asks if I'm taking his jacket and I say ok but make sure you take my jumper then. He says okay... I'll wear your jumper until tomorrow and then when I see you we can exchange jumpers. Tomorrow?!?!? Are we meeting tomorrow Yohaan? He says I don't know. But on the spot, he comes up with a reason for us to see each other tomorrow. Yohaan, Yohaan, sometimes you say the cutest things... I will see you tomorrow. And it will be just because I miss you... And the hugs too! One day, I will call you at an ungodly hour because I will need you then. For all that, I love you!!

Do It

"Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it."

- Johann van Goethe-

Vocation, Discernment

So vocation don't apparently equal priesthood or religious life as I just found out. It's about 3 different possible paths in life. Religious life, marriage, and consecrated single. The concepts are not too difficult to grasp but the process of discerning which one your life is destined for is hard.

It's been ages since I last heard the word discernment being thrown at me. I was always told to discern in the past. I never gave it much thought. For each and every thing I used to do in YFC, my Kuyas, Ates, Titos & Titas would always remind me to discern and pray about it. i always thought that it was about pondering over what to do and then praying for the confidence and the humility to do the tasks of servants.

I've been triggered. I can wait I have to say. I'm fearful about what's in store for me. What if what's in store for me is not what I want? How am I going to reconcile the two? Past experiences tell me you cannot fight God. If you wanna do what you think is best for yourself, he will let you do it. But at the expense of him not being by your side.

I couldn't help but wish for more faith in my life and to be back doing what i was doing before in YFC. God was close. And I miss that closeness and my reliance on him.

Here It Is

I've just been given permission to play with someone's nails. Someone very unexpected. It's a guy. So yea... It is hell unexpected!

This guy, he don't usually let me do these kind of girly things with him. I was talking about a manicure while I was outside a manicure shop and I turn to him saying I'm gonna do your nails. And he looks at me and says OK! My jaws drop and then I smile and go Really?

I say to him, ok wait till after exams. And he's like why so long? And I say, well do you want me to do it during study break? He says why not. And I say AWESOME! Can't wait now!! Hell excited. :)

Point to note, I'm convinced of the vain side of guys. I mean some guys take hell long in the bathroom and hell long to get changed. Not just cos they want to look good, they also want to impress. But I say it's more than just about trying to impress the girls. They like being told they smell nice and feel nice. Like girls... :p

Anyway, posts are meant to be some sort of surprises. So I write when I'm alone and someone somewhere else sees it, and they read it, laugh, feel sad etc... I was really excited about this post as you should be able to tell by now and then I was hell embarrassed when the person I was writing about became the first person to read this post. Even without me posting it. He hijacked my comp and stole a long preview of it. :S But this has to go up so yea.. Here it is.